I haven’t written for a while. I would like to say the main reason is that I’ve been moving and having had any time. While the fact of that is true, it isn’t the real reason for not having made a new post.
As many of you know, or could see here, I had been working on a series of posts about getting over gear addiction which I had sarcastically labeled my “12 steps.” Well, as an example of the seriousness of such addictions I fell off the wagon myself before having written the “3rd step.”
It is true, I also had been in the process of moving. I blame that fact for my inability to stay true to a promise I made to myself just one post ago ( The Pact). I blame moving, because, before moving back to the small town where I lived before I started to think about the difficulty of shooting film there. I started to think about the problems I had before trying to do so. I started doing the math on the cost of film and developing over the next year. Stuff I usually don’t think about.
After thinking all night about this, I convinced myself shooting film in the small town would be too pricey and too difficult. I slept on that thought, thinking it would be gone by morning. Sadly, I woke up 5 hours earlier than I needed to for work the next day. I showered and left without much of a thought. No real plan, just knew I was going to Seoul.
2 hours later and I was holding a new Leica M 240.
So, I fell off the wagon. I sold everything else I had to get this camera. Do I regret it? Not so much. I’m not sure. I’m numb to it, I suppose. Anyway, like an addict who has gotten his fix, I’m not sure I’d tell you anyway. I even had the momentary thought not to talk about this here with the fear of being called a hypocrite.
Then I remembered my own step 1. Admitting the problem.
And, I realized I’m not a hypocrite at all.
Just an addict.
My name is Josh, and I’m addicted to cameras.
I haven’t bought a camera for 6 days.